fighting with my own

When i wanted to study...
i will think something negatif until don't study...
if i really wanted to stay one more year in school...
i will think the negatif thing...
but i have to be responsible to myself and my parents...
so i will try as hard as i can to think positive then start working hard...
i don't want to get into trouble...
i don't want to think anymore...
just study...then i will know the answer that i want to find out...
i wish my dream come true...